Dinner's On Me!

I went out to my first crit (post-injury) yesterday.  It was a small field of 15 riders, but there were definitely some strong legs out there.  A couple of fast ladies from the Farm Team showed up, and there was a collegiate national champion in the ranks.  It was NOT going to be an easy race.  However, with teams being represented with (at most) two riders, it also was not going to be a constant attack fest.

There were some surprisingly big primes on the line for the day - several $20 prizes, one was $50 and another was $100.  VERY impressive Wachtung Wheelmen.  VERY impressive.  Not to mention $750 payout 10 deep for our field.  Why this race doesn't generate more interest is beyond me, but I plan to try to get it on the team's radar for next year!  We could rack up some serious cashola if we brought out the big guns for this one!!

So, I had a feeling that it would come down to a field sprint - NOT my cup of tea, but whatever.  I was feeling surprisingly good, and at one point, I launched a rather fruitless attack.  Nonetheless, I got off the front solo.  I settled in to a nice TT pace and passed through the finish line.  When I came through the second time, they called a 2-deep prime... $50 for 1st, $20 for 2nd.  OH, CRAP.  I knew that meant that #1 - I had a shot at $50 and #2 - they were going to chase like banshees!

So, I put my head down, gritted my teeth, and just hauled butt.  I made it to the line for the prime, with another rider about half a bike length behind for the $20.  PHEW!  But, then... I had to survive.  The next 45 seconds were BRUTAL.  I had burned myself up on that flyer and with my fitness still coming around, it was NOT pleasant.  But, I managed to get enough air and enough power in my legs to hang on at the back.

Of course, this completely blew me for the finish, so I had a terrible final result.  BUT - I raced hard.  I cannot look at that race and be upset in ANY way.  I jumped away from a field for 2.5 laps!  I won a $50 prime!!  I am back on the bike and feeling good!

Thanks to Mike for driving us up there and for getting us home in the pouring, flooding rain of South Jersey.  I'm SO sorry that it took you another HOUR to get the 7 miles back to your house!  I owe you... BIG TIME!  :)

Happy Birthday, Grams!

My grandmother turns 88 today.  She's an amazing woman.  She's spunky, she's funny, she loves life, she loves her family, and she has lived a wonderful life.

A couple of years ago, we armed ourselves with a recorder and asked her questions about her life.  She told us about meeting my grandfather.  Their first kiss.  And, about how she told her mom he was a few years younger than he really was because her mother would kill my 18-year-old grandmother for dating a man who was 25!

She told us about the great flood in Cincinnati in 1937 when the house downtown was flooded up to the third floor windows and she and her mom took a boat back to the house to try to save the family bird.  She watched her mother climb in the 3rd story window only to find that the bird had died and all of the furniture from the first two floors was floating.



The family still owns and lives in that house today - running the nearly 100 year old pickle factory out of the basement.  And, my grandmother goes there every Saturday to help pack pickles, clean jars, and stick on labels.

My grandfather passed away in 1995.  He was an amazing man that I wish I had known better.  He was funny, hard-working, handsome, and tough.  I'm lucky that I am learning about him from my mother, my aunts and uncles, and my grandmother.  And, I am very grateful that I am taking the time to know my Grams better while I have the chance.

Happy 88th Birthday, you spunky little lady.  I love you dearly and can't wait to hear some more stories about your amazing life soon!

Is There a Doctor in the House?!?

Um... yes, yes, there is!!

I did it!  Officially and finally!  I defended this afternoon and was officially passed - my paperwork signed - my title given.  I am Dr. Porkchop!

The short of it is this... I presented my work for 20 minutes in front of my committee members, my parents, sister and brother-in-law (who were there via Skype), my porkfectly wonderful hubby, 2 Temple grad students, and 4 of my favorite colleagues from work.

After the 20 minutes, the committee members took turns asking me some questions.  Then, the audience  asked a few questions.  Then, the committee asked us all to leave so that they could chat.  A few minutes later, they called me back in and congratulated me!  And, officially called me Dr. for the first time.  WOW.

So, that's it.  I have to send the electronic document to the server before August 5th and then, I just have to wait for my diploma to arrive in the mail!

I documented the day, or at least most of it, in photos... so, here they are...

5:30 am: Wake Up
6:00 am: Ride

8:00 am: get home from ride, shower, eat, drink coffee, do crossword puzzle, stress out

10:45 am: arrive on campus to see these posted all over the place!

11:15 am: get into classroom, turn on computer, load powerpoint, give myself a pep talk from Kid President...

12:00 - 1:45 pm: Defend, defend, defend.  Leave the room to await deliberations.

1:50 pm: Declared a Doctor!

WOO HOO!

A Shiny New Jersey Jersey

So, Sunday was my first race back since April 21st.

When I looked back at my results and realized it had been nearly 3 months since I raced my bike, I was very sad.  And, very grateful.  Two months ago, I literally couldn't walk.  I was in excruciating pain.  I was debilitated.  And, I feared that it would never get better.

So, the fact that I was even there on Sunday seemed to be a blessing to me.  65 miles with 50 riders - mostly men in the 55/65+ categories, I hoped that I would be able to hang on to the main group and stay in for the finish.  With only 5-6 women in the field, I was hoping for a podium!  Silly, I know, but it was a goal!

The pack essentially stayed together for the whole race.  While there were a few solo attacks off the front, it wasn't in the cards for anyone to stay away on the pancake flat course.  A few riders dropped off the back as the pace got lifted in the 4th lap, but I felt comfortable and strong sitting in the middle of the field.

As we came through the final lap, I gave Kristin and Chuck a thumbs up and just focused on the finish. I got as close to the other women as I could, knowing that I needed to watch them toward the line.

As we hit 500 meters to go, the field began to stretch out across the road.  I made the instinctual move left and it was a good decision.  A little kerfuffle on the right side of the road held up some riders, but I was able to move past it on the left to sprint for the line - as much as a Porkchop can sprint, that is.

One female rider, Caryl Gale, finished in front of me (and 5th overall!), and I came in at 15th overall and 2nd in the women's field!  PODIUM!!  Wahoo!

Once I got over to the podium ceremony, I found out that I had gotten MORE than a podium...  I was the only 35+ woman in the race, so I actually got a NJ State Road Race Championship jersey and a W!

Even though I was the only 35+ woman in the field, I'm stoked to have had such a good first race back.  It's given me the confidence to keep riding and keep training.  I'm looking forward to getting back out there with the team and having fun with them for the rest of the race season and into the beautiful realm of fall riding... :)

Thanks to my awesome pit crew (Borda and Mr. Porkchop), thanks to Specialized for making the Amira (she's the best steed, ever!!), and thanks to Mother Nature for providing us the woods in which we all relieved ourselves after the director of the Mullica Recreation Park decided to spite the cyclists and remove all but one of the porta-potties the night before the race.  Shame on you, meanie-face.  

The Post That Leads To AWESOME!

I needed to watch this again last night.  I went out to Greentree for the first time since May.  It was rough.  I knew that it would be... but it was rough.  Within a few laps, I was gasping for air and my legs were screaming.  Within a few more, I was popped.  I hopped back in, lasted a few minutes longer than the first time... then popped again for the final time.  Did I mention that it was rough??  

But, I was in there.  I was surrounded by friends - those who want to see me come back - and it was great.  The feeling of kicking my own butt out there with the guys was fantastic, even if I couldn't hold a wheel to save my life.  Next week will be better.  I'm certain of it.

My defense is now less than a week away.  I'm excited, a bit scared and nervous, but also strangely calm.  I've been working on cutting down my talk to under 20 minutes.  Do you have any idea how hard it is to cover a 200 page dissertation in 15-20 minutes?!?  Holy CRAPOLY!!  This is a magic act in and of itself... not to mention that I have to present this naturally without straying too far from what I want to say and without speed talking!  Wowza.  It's gonna be great!

So, I have a feeling that I will watch this video a few more times before next Wednesday... thanks for the pep talk, Kid President!!

Back in the Saddle Again

This past week/weekend saw me attending 2 races...though I wasn't racing, I was helping out my team and the Heart House team in the feed zone at the PA and NJ State Road Races.  It was fun to be around the team again and my heart felt better being with them.  

So, Sunday, Borda and I headed down to Badger's house for a ride and a sponsor-based photo shoot!  We needed to take some pics for our great sponsor Beyer Kia and for our new friends at ProGold.  So, it was Badger, Little D, Borda, and me out for a spin.  We just hung around in "the park" near Badger's house, but we did a climb and we didn't dawdle.  Afterwards, we went out for lunch.  When we stood up from the table, I was shocked.  No pain.  None.  For about 10 minutes.  Then, a little bit started to come back in. 

Several times over the next 24 hours, I realized that I was actively moving and feeling no pain.  This is the first time that I can say that since MAY.  The pain is not gone.  Not entirely... but, I am feeling SO much better.

So, we hit the Action Wheels ride last night.  It was great.  I had a blast and felt good on the bike.  Borda had to do long intervals today, so I joined her for those this morning.  By 9:00, I'd put in more miles in the last three days than in the last 2 months!  And, I'm still feeling GREAT!

I have decided to take tomorrow off, hit Greentree on Thursday night, and race in the NJ Masters State Road Race on Sunday.  I'm truly hoping that this is it... that I am back in the saddle for good.  But, trust me... I am extremely attentive to my body right now.  When it tells me that enough is enough, I will listen.  But, for now, the bod is telling me to just do it!  

Back in the saddle again...

Intolerance and The Art of Letting Go

In the age of social media, you often find out more about what is on the mind of your friends than you ever thought possible.  In fact, in most cases, you learn more than you ever wanted.  You find out about their quirks (in odd and sometimes uncomfortable ways), you discover their likes and dislikes, and you uncover the limits of their tolerance for others.

I, personally, find intolerance intolerable.  Yep, I completely see the hypocrisy of that statement.  But, it's true.  The more I learn about people, the more I realize that intolerance is a sickness from which many of us desperately need a vaccination.  And, I admit it... I am intolerant of intolerance.  I find the blatant hatred of different groups, cultures, religions, political parties, or other "differences" appalling.  Don't get me wrong... I dislike some people.  But, I tend to dislike them due to their personal actions, not because they're part of some grouping that has been socio-culturally created.

Recent interactions with those whose intolerance is ignited by things like skin color, religious denomination, or what side of my head I choose to part my hair (by the way, if you don't part on the right, you're WRONG!), has opened my eyes.  I'm desperately working on my own intolerance.

My intolerance to those who drive like idiots.
My intolerance to those who always put themselves above everyone else.
My intolerance of annoying commercials.
My intolerance of the news media.
My intolerance of intolerance.

As Gandhi once said, "Anger and intolerance are the enemies of correct understanding."

I would bet that Gandhi was also intolerant of intolerance.  And, I bet he struggled with it as we all do.

I suppose that it's all part of the Art of Letting Go.

I know that I've just quoted Gandhi, so quoting the woman who wrote "Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul" might seem like a downshift.  However, I think that this statement has tons of validity and truth to it... "Letting go doesn't mean that you don't care about someone anymore.  It's just realizing that the only person you really have control over is yourself."

I'm trying to listen to advice from a very good friend about letting go.  It's such a hard thing to do, and I'm realizing that my personality is such that I am always trying to "fix" things that are going wrong...even if the attempt is futile and the thing really isn't worth fixing.  I've done this for a long time, and I'm always disappointed when I can't fix what I see as broken.

Through talking with her, I've realized that I've been trying to fix the wrong thing.  I cannot fix others.  I cannot make people more tolerant.  I cannot make them realize that they are headed down the wrong path.  I cannot make them see things my way if they absolutely refuse.  I cannot help them if they're happy in the situation that they have chosen.  All I CAN do is look at myself, realize that I am unhappy with the current status quo, and get myself out of it.  All I can control is ME.

So, here you have it.  My July 4th resolutions... Cultivate Tolerance and Practice the Art of Letting Go.

Wish me luck.

The Post Without a Schnazzy Name

I don't even know what to call this post....

I Can't Believe I Just Emailed That...?

Holy Crap, This is Great News...?

The Best Week Ever...?

I suppose that all of those would be viable.

I know that it's only Tuesday, though, so the last one might be a tad preemptive.  Still, it's been a pretty daggon good start to the week!

The best Monday EVER began with a bike ride with Borda.  We started out from her house and it was overcast, but cool.  About 20 minutes in, the sky opened and the rain began.  It drizzled, then it drizzled harder, then it was just an awesome steady rain.  I loved EVERY SECOND of it.  I was on my bike.  I was with one of the greatest gals ever.  I was happy.  And, I was feeling good.

Turns out, the best thing for my (still painful) sciatic nerve is riding my bike and stretching more than I've ever stretched in my life!  After two solid days on the bike and two solid days of stretching sessions, I am feeling REALLY good and am actually optimistic that I'm going to only get better from here on out.

We then spent about 6 hours of our Monday at the Crescent Moon coffee shop (best Toffee Cream Bars, EVER!!) working.  I finished editing my dissertation while Borda studied for her Final Exam.  At about 3:45pm yesterday, I emailed the final version of my dissertation to my committee (I Can't Believe I Just Emailed That!) and my defense announcement to the secretary of the department.  The announcement went out this morning (this thing is now officially happening on the 17th!!) and all of my advisors responded saying that they got the document and were looking forward to reading it.

I woke up this morning to more rainy weather, so I decided to ride my bike on the trainer rather than get soaked again.  A nice spin left me feeling good and stretched out without a lot of pain in my sciatic!  YESSSS!!!

And then, I got an email.  I knew from the sender's name that it was about an article that I'd sent in for consideration for publication.  My laptop was acting a bit screwy, so it took like a zillion minutes (ok, maybe it was about 10 seconds) to open.  Once it did, I realized that my paper had been... accepted!!!

HOLY CRAP, This Is GREAT News!!!  I'm going to have part of my dissertation published in a peer-reviewed journal in early 2014.

Wow, wow, wow!

So, as I said... it's only Tuesday, so it might be a bit early to declare the Best Week Ever.  Still, it's in the running...

T-Minus 3 Weeks

And definitely counting...

July 17th is the big day.  Defense day.  If all goes well, I'll be declared Dr. Porkchop sometime that afternoon!  I can hardly believe that the day is so fast approaching, but I'm ready.  I feel confident that I've produced a solid dissertation with some really unique, original, interesting, and fun material.  I feel that I will be more than ready to present and defend my work.  And, I'm lucky and grateful to have a crew of supporters that will be there for the event, including my amazing colleagues, my hubby, and my parents (via Skype!!).  I have no doubt that it will be a great day and I'm actually starting to look forward to it.

Of course, there is MUCH to be done before then.  I've designed my flyer, which will be sent to the entire University early next week.  I'm now doing proofread #1 of the entire dissertation.  This proofread is just for minor errors.  Proofread number two will be for formatting and all of that jazz.  And then, the whole thing will be sent to all of my committee members for a final read before the defense. 

And, of course, I have to prepare my defense.  A twenty minute presentation of my work.  Twenty minutes sounds like a long time, right?  Yeah... not so much.  I could probably fill half of that time just talking about WHY I chose this topic.  But, I have to do that AND give a thorough explanation of my entire dissertation in twenty minutes.  Yipes.  Brevity.  Yes, I must cultivate brevity. 

What's New, Magoo?

So, let's start with someone else's life, shall we?  I'm still waiting to hear the news of Baby A's arrival.  Though she's now 1 week late, I know that her mother has given her an eviction notice, so her arrival is imminent.  I can't wait to get the text that she's on her way, or here... and I'm really excited to get to meet her later! 

I've been back on the bike.  It's been pretty good, actually.  I mean, I did some 1 minute intervals today.  They sucked.  I suck.  My fitness is completely gone and I was not even close to being able to hold a moderate wattage for even 1 stinking minute.  But, I was smiling the ENTIRE ride!!  I'm on my bike!!  And, it generally feels pretty damn good.  

We joined the local swim club.  It's been nice to sit out in the sun near a pool into which we can hop when we get overheated.  It's not a big place and it's nothing fancy - just the local dive (so to speak), but we like it and it's fun to have a place to go together.  

My defense is just on the horizon.  I think that my sister is going to be in town for the event, so I'm REALLY excited about that.  I'm looking forward to it all being over and being done with this whole thing.  With just a bit left to do, I'm trying not to run out of steam.

Two days left of teaching and the final and I'm on official vacation until the Fall semester starts back up.  7 weeks of freedom to ride my bike, work on some grant writing for the Animal Shelter, prep my fall classes (both online and live), and spend some quality hours soaking up some much needed Vitamin D!  

Bring it on!

Back to Basics

I have my follow up with the ortho on Monday.  Fingers are crossed that I will be given the full green light (or green flag, as the case may be) to get back on the road on my bike.  The pain is now nearly gone...I get some back soreness at the end of the day, and I'm still pretty reliant upon my anti-inflammatory pills to keep things from getting too inflamed.  But, I'm ready to get back.  I'm ready to be back on the bike and riding/training with my AMAZING teammates and friends.

Speaking of my teammates, they have been RIPPING it UP out there!  So many podiums for BadKat and Little D and BChan that I can barely keep track of them.  You should keep an eye on them on the team blog.  I'm so proud of them and SO ready to be back out there with them - even if I'm just pack-fodder.  To be back in the Wasabi and Orchid and back on Mari is now a near reality.  YAY!

I've been doing lots of core work - I'm sure that my dream of having six-pack abs will never happen (I love sweet fruit and Diet Pepsi waay too much), but a strong core that keeps my back in line is definitely in the cards!

The dissertation process is still underway...I'm at one of those slightly frustrating points where I am waiting for feedback and can't really do anything.  Sigh.  Talk about testing one's patience.  If I can get through this, I think I can survive just about anything that forces me to wait.  And wait.  And wait.

Speaking of waiting...my bestest friend in the world is currently waiting on the arrival of her first baby! I'm VERY excited about this and can't wait to travel to the other side of the nation to meet Baby A later this summer.  She's due this Sunday, so the little one may arrive any day now.  I'm hoping that, for her sake, the peanut decides to be on time or just barely late... I'm not sure that another two weeks of patience are in the cards!!  Plus, we all want to know what crazy name they've chosen for her.... I've thought of suggesting a few... but I figure DeadSpin can do it for me.  ;)

So, come on, Baby A!  We're WAITING!!!

Seven Tubs and Seven Hours of Peaceful Sleep

I had to travel to Wilkes-Barre, PA this past weekend.  If you've never been to Wilkes-Barre, allow me to say that it's a quaint little town in Luzerne County.  It has some really pretty areas, but it's a bit of a sad place, too.  While there's a Wegman's in town, there are only a few additional grocery stores and they're less than ideal.  Not a lot of fresh fruit, not a lot of fresh veggies, and a TON of processed foods.  Still, I've been there several times over the past few years... once for the PA State Criterium Championships and twice for conferences with students. 

This conference was great and fun.  They tend to be a tad bit boring on occasion, as they're more for the students than the advisors.  So, when Saturday rolled around and we had less than a ton to do, my advisor-friend Bill and I decided to find something to do.  A quick Google search revealed the Seven Tubs Nature Area. It was quite pretty and the hike up to the top of the falls was fun! 

Though we had breakfast available on Sunday morning, I decided to hit the road after the last session on Saturday night and sleep in my own bed (not the new one, yet...).  Plus, we had much to do the next day to get the new bed finished, moved in, and ready for our first night!

We were slightly derailed when we decided to hit the local Flea Market with the In-laws!  It was GREAT, actually.  I mean, it was a completely awesome people watching paradise, but we actually found some cool stuff.  I picked up a beautiful little daguerreotype of a young woman for $15.  She's gorgeous and the piece is in really wonderful condition.  Her cheeks are tinted pink and her jewelry is painted with gold.  Really stunning.  I simply couldn't pass it up!  It's not the best image of her, but here she is!

The first night's sleep on the new bed was wonderful.  We both slept like babies.  The larger mattress is wonderful and it's so fantastic to feel a solid and high quality mattress underneath us.  And, my back and hip didn't hurt!!  :)  We're VERY happy.  Even if I did hit my head on the new headboard once!  ;) 

Nearly Finished...

So, my healing continues. 

While my pelvic shift is gone (except on rare occasions where I've overdone it and my muscles get tired), I'm still in quite a bit of pain.  The most pain I feel when I try to sleep on our mattress.  I can sleep like a baby on the $250 piece of crud mattress in the spare bedroom.  Or on the couch.  But, I curl up next to Mr. Porkchop in our bed and forget about it.  I'm up at 3am in horrible pain and moving to another room for the rest of the night.

Enter... our solution.

For the first time in a LONG time, we've splurged a bit.  We bought a new bed frame and a new mattress this week.  It's fundamental if we ever want to sleep in the same room again!  I've been working hard to stain and finish the bed frame, which we bought from the local "naked" furniture guy.  It's gorgeous solid pine with 12 drawers underneath the bed platform, and a lovely bookcase headboard.  Once it's all together and in place, photos are sure to follow. 

The mattress choosing expedition was a blast.  We flopped around on a dozen different mattresses instructing one another to BOUNCE!  And basking in the fact that on some of the mattresses, we could barely even feel the other person moving.  It was just like the commercials!  In the end, we were really lucky to find a PERFECT mattress on clearance, so we got it for about 70% off the regular price.  WIN!  It's perfect... it doesn't hurt my back or my hip, it's comfy, and it's bigger than our current bed.

If all goes well, we'll have the new bedroom put together this weekend.  Happiness and Joy and NO PAIN!

Iron Hill Twilight CRAP

I know that I'm not even able to race right now, but I was hoping that by July I'd be back in the mix.  Probably off the back of the mix, but at least getting to the start line with my ladies.  With that in mind, I was thinking that I've always wanted to do the Iron Hill Twilight Crit.  I missed racing it last year because of my shoulder, but I was there cheering on a teammate and thought it was so awesome. 

So, I thought that perhaps, perchance, maybe I'd be able to try it out this year.  Until a friend emailed me very confused about the start time.  "Why does BikeReg say that the women's race starts at 9am?"  I looked it, up and responded the only way I could, "Because that's apparently when it starts."

WHAT THE HELL?!?!

Not only have the promoters of this raced slapped the Women's PROFESSIONAL/Cat 1/2/3 field in the face by putting us at 9:00 in the morning when the major crowds come out for what used to be the Men's and Women's Pro fields at the twilight crit in the evening.  But, they've also seen fit to have the women's payout at $400... split among the top 10 finishers.  To put this in perspective, the Men's pro payout is $15,000.  Yes, that's THREE zeros there.  ONE of these slaps would be enough to cause some women to boycott the race.  But you've given us the old Three Stooges one-two.  And, we're NOT stooges. 

Now, don't get me wrong, I don't expect the payouts to be equal.  That's a HUGE rarity in our sport, and I understand and respect why it doesn't happen often.  I am ok with that.  But $400???  Why not just give us medals and call it a day.  You're asking women who have reached the top domestic tier of our sport to show up to an event that clearly believes that women are not worth ANYTHING. 

It's OFFENSIVE Iron Hill Twilight Crit.  I know many women that are planning to boycott this race.  And, I know that there are a lot of top MEN who are skipping it for the first time this year as well.  I can assure you that NONE of my teammates will be attending this event.  And, I'd be surprised if you get enough amazing, fast, dedicated, and awesome women to even pay 10 deep.

Shame on you. 

Happy Happy Joy Joy!

So, it's been a good couple of days.  Honestly!  It's been a while since my mood has been this good, and it has a lot to do with some seriously positive physical recovery!

I went to PT this morning, and my therapist was ALL smiles!  She was just elated about how I was looking and feeling.  It made me feel so good to know that I'm finally making serious and real progress.  I'm not in a lot of pain anymore - there's still some - but I realize that I am starting to forget that things hurt.  The hurt has also moved around a lot - it's not shooting down my leg into my ankle anymore.

What else happened this week to make things so awesome, you ask??

1.  Jim, Jeanne, and I got tickets to see the Killers in Atlantic City.  I know, I know... I've already gotten the stink eye from Mr. Porkchop several times... but, they're just so AWESOME!  And, the chance to see them in a small-ish venue is something I simply cannot pass up!

2.  We put the deposit down on the hall for my graduation party!  It's such a nice place and the folks that run it are truly awesome.  They're friendly, personable, and just genuinely excited to have us there.

3.  We sent out invitations for the party - and got our first RSVP today!

4.  I ordered my class ring!  When I was in high school, my mom gave me the option of getting a class ring or a letter jacket.  I was such a jock that I went for the letter jacket without a second thought.  I got another letter jacket in college, and decided that now was my chance.  I purchased a gorgeous silver ring engraved with - what else? - "Dr Porkchop" on the inside!  Photos will be posted when it arrives!

5.  I sold another photo - thus making the above ring purchase possible!!  I went in for acupuncture today and my large coastal photo of Hawai'i was hanging on the wall in it's 2 x 3 foot splendor.  When I came out of the session, it was gone and I was handed cash for the purchase!  I immediately said, "RING money!!"  Then, I came home and completed #4!

6.  I had to go in for a few extra scans after a questionable something or other was spotted on the MRI of my lower back.  I went in yesterday for the final test and it looks like it's nothing out of the ordinary after all.  This is a huge relief as the preliminary tests revealed possible malignancy.  HUGE sigh of relief!!

7.  I am feeling GOOD!  And, I am allowed to get on the bike tomorrow!  On the trainer, which isn't outside, but I'll take it.  If all continues to improve as it has recently, I'll be back out on the road next week.

Wow.  I continue to be unfalteringly grateful to my friends and family who have put up with me over the last few weeks.  I've been miserable, low, depressed, scared, and angry.  You never let me fall victim to those feelings - always making me giggle, letting me know that you're there, and just generally being the coolest, most awesomest, most fantabulous people I know.  Thank you.

And, to my friends racing Philly this weekend - good luck, kick some butt, I love you all... and be SAFE out there!! xoxo

Road to Recovery... headed WEST!

So, just in the last week or so (since The Killers concert), I've started feeling improvement in my hip/back issues.  Over the last few days, I've been doing a really strict series of exercises at home.  And, they've paid off.  The pelvic shift is nearly gone and it's allowing me to actually begin therapy on my back.  Core building is going well... it's my plan to have the six-pack abs I've always dreamed of.  I mean, if this back injury is going to rob me of yet another race season, I damn well better get something out of it, right?!?!

My whole mental state has improved of late, along with my physical state.  It's so much easier to smile and be happy when I'm only in pain for portions of the day and I can visibly see my body coming back to me.  I may even be able to sleep in bed with Mr. Porkchop again soon!  WAHOO!!

We have begun the planning stages for my graduation party!  I've been dreaming of this for a long time and we decided that we would just make it a big bash - rent a hall, roast a pig, and party hearty with friends and family.  After all, you only get your PhD once, right?!  Unless you get more than one... but, then you're just insane!

I've turned my attention away from the chapters themselves (which are safely in the hands of my committee members) to the abstract and the acknowledgments pages.  How, exactly, does one condense 200 pages of material and several years of research into a one-page abstract?  I have NO IDEA... but, I'll let you know when I figure it out.

Finally!!

So, about 6 months ago, I was very excited.  I woke up on a chilly December morning with the knowledge that I would be seeing the Killers in just a matter of hours.  Unfortunately, that very morning, we got the news that the show was canceled.  I was pretty devastated.  I've been waiting quite a few years to see them.  And, while my desire was temporarily quenched by going to see Brandon Flowers' solo tour, I knew that nothing would be quite the same as seeing the band in their complete glory.

The worst part was that it took about a month for them to announce the make up date... May 19th.  Oh, man...

Of course, to make matters even worse, I was going to have to fend off my body in order to enjoy the show - stupid back/hip issue!

Anywho...

The show was last night.  I've finally had the chance to see the Killers.  And, they were WELL worth the wait.  They were INCREDIBLE!  The set list was fantastic - with all of the expected big hits, a few tracks off of the new album, and even a surprise (for me) performance of Joy Division's Shadowplay.

On the whole, it was truly fantastic.  And, I was able to dance the night away without a on of pain in my hip and leg.  I'm a little sorer than normal this morning, but I'm off to PT in a few and I'm sure that all will be well.

I will definitely do whatever I can to see them again.  They truly were awesome!  Thanks for coming back 'round to see us, guys!

Turning the Corner

This week was rough.  I knew that it would be, but it's been tough.  I've had some MAJOR downs that were followed by incredible ups.  So, here's how it's gone... and here's where we are now...

It was my first week of summer classes - so I knew that I would be physically challenged by standing up for 3 hours a day to teach.  Tuesday was the roughest day of the week - when the pain and frustration had me at a total low point.

But, it began to turn around.  Wednesday was good.  Thursday was LONG.  I taught all morning and then had graduation at night.  Standing around in the robing area before walking into the gym for the ceremony was very tough.  Once I sat down, I regained my strength, and managed to walk across the stage without limping, without being bent over like an evil henchman, and with the exquisite joy of being hooded masking the pain in my hip and leg.

Friday had me going from doctor's appointment to doctor's appointment.  PT in the morning was followed by a visit to Imaging for a scan and acupuncture with Marnie in the afternoon.  By the end of the day, I was tired and achey, but feeling ok.

Saturday started well - we went to the Farmer's Market and bought some gorgeous golden beets and potatoes to roast.  I went out and did some shopping at the mall for some pants.  Ouch.  By the time I got home from that, I needed a nap.  I was in quite a bit of pain, but felt wonderful after waking up from my nap.

Today has started pretty well.  After doing my PT exercises, I'm a bit sore, but I'm planning a restful afternoon so that I can PARTY my butt off tonight at The Killers concert!

But, perhaps the best part, is this...For the first time in 4 weeks, I woke up STRAIGHT this morning!  My hips were nearly perfectly aligned.  I can feel it in my entire body.  They often speak of "turning a corner" in recovery.  I am really hoping that this weekend was my corner.

I am looking forward to spending the evening with my friends.  I am looking forward to the next week to see if I can keep turning corners and getting better.  Maybe getting back on the bike in June will be possible after all.  I'll have a LOT of catching up to do, but if I'm with my team... I know that I can do it!

Dr. Porkchop! Almost!

So, while it won't be officially official until I defend in July... last night was commencement.  I celebrated the completion of Doctoral work with a few of my classmates (they're colleagues now, I guess!), and was extremely happy to share the evening with Mr. Porkchop, his mom and stepdad, and my good friend and work colleague Brian.

It was a great evening.  There's something overwhelming about hearing someone introduce you to a room full of people as "Dr."

 Lily, Amy, Judith, Sophie, and Me - the Doctoral class of 2013

 We got to sit in the front row! 

 Getting ready to be called up on stage and hooded...and me telling Chuck that in order to get photos of the event, he actually had to be IN FRONT of the stage, not behind it!

 Hooding!  

 After the event!

Looking good! 

So, for now, I'm still plain old Mrs. Porkchop.  But, in EXACTLY 2 months from today, I hope to be able to officially introduce myself as Dr.  Wow...that's a little surreal!

Hooding Day!

OK - so, yesterday's post was a bit of a downer.  I know, I admit it.  But, I was in a bad place.  I broke down a bit at Physical Therapy yesterday, too...even though things are getting better.  And, my therapists just said, "It's totally understandable that you're tired and frustrated...we're going to get you through this."  Everyone's been saying that, and I'm trying to believe them.  I know that it's true, and I'm getting there.

But, no negativity today.  Why?  Because it's

HOODING DAY!!!

I'm not calling it "Graduation Day" as I'm technically not graduating until later in the summer.  But, I AM walking in Graduation tonight and getting "hooded" by one of my absolute favorite people.  I'm excited and a bit overwhelmed.

I mean, I'm not REALLY done.

What if they decide that my dissertation is shite and tell me to give back my regalia?!  

What if I completely flop my defense and they think, "Holy HELL, we can't give this woman a degree?!?!"

What if the incoming swarm of locusts eat my dissertation?

What if...

What if...

What if...

Wait... I said that this was going to be a positive post!!

YES!  I am going to finish this darned thing.

I will produce a brilliant manuscript, with wonderfully interesting interpretations of portraits of children.

I will perform a mind-boggling defense that leaves them thinking that they should just stop giving degrees, because what could be better than that?!

I will turn this puppy in EARLY, because there will be so few changes post defense that I can get them done in a 24 hour period.

I will...

I will...

I will...